At the Kairos weekend I was suddenly appointed music leader. Suddenly. No preparation time. I had my song book but I thought the page numbers in the songbooks the guys had were different than in mine, so I had to transpose. I had an old list of songs that I knew and I made a new short list off that. I had the 6 page program schedule and needed to fit the right songs into the most suitable places. There were two music stands so I put the songbook open on the left one and the agenda and the lists on the right.
Then I went into ADD meltdown!. This is not the same as brain freeze, but just as bad. I was shuffling through papers and pages and couldn’t find the ones I wanted and some of the papers had gotten stuck inside the song book and the meeting was about to start and I was confused and frustrated and stressed and frantic and flipping pages and shuffling pages and couldn’t think and and and —– and I just stopped.
Stepped away, took a few deep breaths, said a short prayer, and went back and it all went fine. ADD meltdown – no fun. Turns out the page numbers were the same in all the books – I still haven’t figured that out.